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I can't secure a company. People. I'm in deep shit. I've already got rejected by 3. Really big grand ones. That probably see me as something as a useless fag who can't do anything right. I probably haven't done enough. I am on the verge of breaking down. I am typing this to express how extremely frustrated I am with myself. How did I ever land in this stupid spot?

How can anyone help me now? My cries for help, are becoming more and more desperate that I have no idea what I should do anymore. I can forsake everything I have just to score a nice little interview and a nice little job for 3 months... learn some new experiences and stuff and just ... sigh. I don't know. I didn't know it would be this hard.

I am trying my best yet I have a feeling all my lesshurers are looking at me, looking DOWN at me, like some sort of slacker.

I CANNOT HELP IT IF I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANY OF YOU.

And if I have to wait 1 more year, I will seriously break down in tears and just go fucking rebel and ... just... go mad.

I thought I had a bright future ahead of me. Do I? Do I? Tell me.

Everyone's happy and joyful and hoho haha hehe. AND ME? What am I doing? What? If you're wondering what's with t3h emo shit, my deadline's this Monday, the 29th. And if I don't secure any company, I am screwed for life (=365 days) and I'm pretty much a carcass. Rotting. Immobile.

If anyone could hear my cries for help and save me. And I am hungry now. And there is nothing to satisfy me. I am so EXHAUSTED that I wanna SLEEP but I CAN'T because I'm so irritated that nothing's happening!!!

CAN SOMETHING ABSOLUTELY MAGICAL HAPPEN FOR ME?

PLEASE?

It's not like I'm actively slacking, ok? I think for all the effort I put in, I deserve ... SOMETHING! ANYTHING!

Fuck my life.